the girl who tried to be indie
bought blur and scritti politti
hoarded demos of pete doherty
then gave them to the charity shop.
he never lived up to his ‘tortured genius’ tag.
he did not die at 27.
the girl who tried to be indie
got on all things from the 80s.
the cure, fall, smiths, stone roses.
read up on freud and arthouse movies
considered getting a winehouse tattoo
sighed into her camera and breathed ‘ach do’
like she was sylvia fucking plath.
the girl who tried to be indie
bought two speakers and an old turntable
learnt the names of independent labels
went to brighton for the summer
and protested she didn’t need a lover
aside from all the boys she called “cants!”
she had nothing
but a gin in her hand and crabs in her pants.
A POEM BY FRED YEAST